Monday, November 25, 2013

Second Chances....

Since my husband and I separated in Aug. I've had so many things happen to make me wonder if "love ever after" is truly a real thing. Don't get me wrong. My mom & dad were married for 45 years before they passed away. 
Being part of the "separated" scene I've watched how people play this game. It got sickening for me so much, I started looking back at my marriage and what went wrong. I got to analyzing this in the last two months that I approached my husband two weeks ago. 
I explained to him that I didn't like what we were doing to each other. The pain we were creating! Just to prove a point. I asked him if we could learn to trust each other. Can we forget the pain we created and focus on the fun times we've had. Can we create more fun in the future?
 He had been feeling the same way. Neither of us had stopped loving each other. So after 1 week of talking and communicating we have been very happy. It has been easy for me to fall back into my role of wife and mother. 
As I am laying here writing this, he has been rubbing my achy sore legs. I know of people that have overcame adversity in their marriage. I am hoping I can too. 
 To me, getting through the holidays and a kid having surgery without "J" by my side is unimaginable!!

Love hugs and vodka shots!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

I'm back!

Well after a long hiatus I am back and ready to blog…
I have missed it so much yet because of all the crap of life that has been 
going on I just haven't been able to sit and blog.

This last year has been real crappy with the separation of the husband and
trying to deal with teenage boys that are confused. The oldest is rebelling
in every way possible. I understand their hurt and confusion yet his attitude is
really bad. 

I've been applying for jobs but it seems that being old and a stay at home mom,
people don't want to hire you. Or else I am filling the applications wrong.
It's just scary as I am sitting and watching my savings account dwindle away.

I have had a lot on self reflection and how interestingly I
believe I may not of been as happy in my marriage as I thought I was.
Although the pain is hard and very raw, I have came to realize that I think I was
just going through the motions of what I "thought" I was suppose to be.

Since our separation I have met some good gals that I have become friends with.
I started to go to dance class for country dance. My friend "M" has always wanted to
yet hasn't had anyone to go with. So that's fun. I also have a football buddy that is as
passionate about football as I am! So "D" have been looking around to find a fun
sports bar that we can hang out in.

So there you have it!
That's what I've been up to and now