Monday, November 25, 2013

Second Chances....

Since my husband and I separated in Aug. I've had so many things happen to make me wonder if "love ever after" is truly a real thing. Don't get me wrong. My mom & dad were married for 45 years before they passed away. 
Being part of the "separated" scene I've watched how people play this game. It got sickening for me so much, I started looking back at my marriage and what went wrong. I got to analyzing this in the last two months that I approached my husband two weeks ago. 
I explained to him that I didn't like what we were doing to each other. The pain we were creating! Just to prove a point. I asked him if we could learn to trust each other. Can we forget the pain we created and focus on the fun times we've had. Can we create more fun in the future?
 He had been feeling the same way. Neither of us had stopped loving each other. So after 1 week of talking and communicating we have been very happy. It has been easy for me to fall back into my role of wife and mother. 
As I am laying here writing this, he has been rubbing my achy sore legs. I know of people that have overcame adversity in their marriage. I am hoping I can too. 
 To me, getting through the holidays and a kid having surgery without "J" by my side is unimaginable!!

Love hugs and vodka shots!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

I'm back!

Well after a long hiatus I am back and ready to blog…
I have missed it so much yet because of all the crap of life that has been 
going on I just haven't been able to sit and blog.

This last year has been real crappy with the separation of the husband and
trying to deal with teenage boys that are confused. The oldest is rebelling
in every way possible. I understand their hurt and confusion yet his attitude is
really bad. 

I've been applying for jobs but it seems that being old and a stay at home mom,
people don't want to hire you. Or else I am filling the applications wrong.
It's just scary as I am sitting and watching my savings account dwindle away.

I have had a lot on self reflection and how interestingly I
believe I may not of been as happy in my marriage as I thought I was.
Although the pain is hard and very raw, I have came to realize that I think I was
just going through the motions of what I "thought" I was suppose to be.

Since our separation I have met some good gals that I have become friends with.
I started to go to dance class for country dance. My friend "M" has always wanted to
yet hasn't had anyone to go with. So that's fun. I also have a football buddy that is as
passionate about football as I am! So "D" have been looking around to find a fun
sports bar that we can hang out in.

So there you have it!
That's what I've been up to and now 

Monday, October 8, 2012

Sending prayers...

We all ask for prayers. We all send up those silly little comments to the god we worship to help us for whatever the reason. We even go so far as to make promises that we won't do something if only...

Today is a little different. I am asking for you to pray for a little girl. One whom is fighting a fight. One that for 10 years has went without a diagnoses. Today, she is getting some tests ran to further find out what "thing" she really is fighting. This family has recently had a small breakthrough but needs even more answers. 

The unknown is harder to fight than even her siblings. Yes, this little girl has two older siblings. A tween and a teen. So let me tell ya, as the youngest of three she can fight with the best of them. 

Speaking of the siblings. Add a prayer for their strength also. As all of us know the difficult time teens and tweens have this day and age. Help them with strength for themselves as they are dealing with the day to day and the strength they need for their sister.

Strength, understanding, health. Energy, stamina and whatever else you would like to add in there for the parents of this wonderful family.  The mother has recently left the job force to join the ranks as a stay at home mom. As her adjustment period is still fresh, she has been struggling with an awful cold. I am sure it is due to the stress and worry that that she is going through. Just speculation on my part though. Not that the weather has been the greatest of course. 

So as we start the week and get busy with all the hustle and bustle. I ask that you take a deep breath. Say a little prayer for a very strong and blessed family. They have each other, but a little help from up above never hurts. 

Thank You,